in between

I feel broken, drained, tired, no energy.  It hurts to smile, I have no energy to even fake it.  Empty. I am so torn.  The new in my life, I try to focus on that, the good.  Today was so difficult.  I was swallowed by the void, there was nothing I could do.  Escape.  I am so exhausted, tired of an existence yet yearn for the new to grow and blossom.  This is my life.