Saturday, December 25, 2010

Christmas Spirit

So here goes.   It's Christmas time, well MERRY CHRISTMAS.  Christmas 2002 was a bit difficult, but I was the one cheering up my Mom and so I kept the "Christmas Spirit" that year especially.  My Gram had passed away in October of that year and I was trying to take care of my Mom.  I was there, living in the same city.  This year is a bit tough.  My Mom passed away in April.  I'm trying not to think of things, I've been doing really well up until Christmas Eve.  I've been trying to keep thoughts out of my mind and just focus on the "Christmas Spirit" for my little 3-year-old girl.  It's really hard b/c I keep thinking of all the Christmases she will have and not a one will she share with Nona.  My Mom will never have Christmas at my house, play the piano w/CC, or sit at the kitchen table and make pitzelles letting CC lick the batter off the spoon.

I think it's more difficult this year than 2002 b/c I have no one to take care of, someone to help who's going through the same thing I am.  Don't get me wrong I am so excited about my little girl's Christmas, I just wish I can do magic and bring my Dad here.  I feel so bad b/c he's by himself, alone.  The door was open, but he chose not to come b/c of the extreme cold weather of where I live.  We'll do the best we can w/modern technology the communication of the internet, but it's not the same has getting a great big hug from your granddaughter, "short pants." 

That's my blurb for now. 

take care,