Afraid to sleep

Afraid to sleep

Afraid to sleep I lay awake

Thinking of you fishing on a lake

With a fly and some lure

A new jargon procured 

Now mounting a large mouth bass

On the wall you yell kiss my ass

Women are fierce you shout

Sheepishly looking about

Too polite to offend

To hurt or to harm

You wipe away tears

As memories they swarm 

Not long ago she wasn't too old

Your princess you held to keep from the cold 

Dangers still deeper you couldn't yet name

Still stabbing; a silent dagger it came

The C word they called it 

Was nothing but shit

Turning your world totally upside down

Screaming in the shower hoping the water to drown

You lie there awake too afraid to sleep

Too many thoughts you now have to keep

Bills to pay, taxes, social security to change

Maybe tomorrow will come but isn't it strange

Now you lie restless, your whole world gone

Maybe just maybe in some far away dawn

These tears of ash will once again be joy

Will one day forever

When a girl loves a boy 

          -JLH