Surpass

 I was putting up your Princess' freshman year photo and I realized she'll graduate from high school and that same year will mark 10 years of you passing away.  The only wish I heard you make, the only plea I heard shortly after your diagnosis was to be able to see her graduate from high school.  She has begun her high school career and we are approaching the time when the number of years you have been dead will surpass the number of years you were alive during her lifetime. That just tears me up inside.  It's a blessing and a curse because she has memories of you, I think she remembers mostly the stories we tell.  It doesn't seem to be painful for her, which I'm grateful yet it crushes me.  It makes no sense.  I wonder how life would be different if it were you and her. Please know I'm doing my best, your princess is truly amazing.  I love you, even still. 

take care