Sunday, May 3, 2020

done for now

Why am I so fucking angry?  Don't give me the stages bull shit.  Did you know there is a 'national widow's day'?  may fucking third. why do we need a day.  why is this hitting me so hard right now? I want to run, I want to ride my bike so fast and just go, but I don't want to leave the house, let alone my fucking room.  I think I would feel so much better if I just went outside and ran, I don't want to be around people though.  Where would I go? I know what direction I would head, I am so fucking lost right now.  I don't want to burden anyone one, but I feel like I'm going to explode.  I'm trying to keep things together for her, I really am.  Why is this so fucking hard right now?  What is different about now?

done for now.

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