Don't want to be here

Why am I here?  I'm waiting for someone.  I don't want to be here.  Yesterday was so good and today is not.  I don't want to be here, yet I made plans yesterday when things were good.  People watching is so painful sometimes.  Old couples holding hands, couples laughing & chatting.  I don't want to be here.  I want to be in our house.  I'm so tired & empty.  I could close my eyes right now.  

I love you handsome

take care