We moved here as a family of three and now a family of two.
Spring is here and trying to take hold. Today we celebrated you, by going to the bookstore, I should say bookstores. Today is the day you left this earth and as you put it, turned off like a switch. Just gone. The last weeks of your life were so painful and so many difficult decisions had to be made. I've been struggling with that these last few weeks, remembering all the choices I had to make, how to include our young daughter without it being a burden to her. To keep her innocent and yet connected to you. I did the best I could as I do today. She's so much older now and understands so much more as we do with age and experience. Losing your Dad at 8 is not the experience you want your child to encounter, to use has a reference in these formative years, yet want and reality are not the same many times.
Today I did not focus on the last day of your life, the people who where there, the every detail, the places we sat, the things we said to each other. As today went on little things came to my mind. We saw a man wearing a Barcelona jersey and both your princess & I smiled. We started the day with some of your favorites, your favorite bookstore, coffee, and lunch at one of your favorite places. Then we ventured out and made some new favorites for just the two of us. We went to some places that we did not see as a family of three, we explored and discovered just the two remaining.
We came home to a kind gesture of flowers, we had to pick them up, a long story, but at the flower shop your princess saw a statuette that belongs to the same collection of the picture above. We've had the piece on the left for over 10 years, a gift from my Mom who passed away seven years ago yesterday. Your princess asked if we could get the piece on the right because it looked like a daughter & mother sitting and talking; and it reminded her of our family of two.
Here comes round three.
I love you handsome man.