tired

Tried to do something for myself this weekend, epic fail.  It was not what I was expecting.  I will surpass your age on Tuesday, no more teasing ever.  Truly, that stopped 17 months ago.  I'm tired and I'm drowning.  I don't want to do this anymore.  I'm tired of this life without you.  I'm tired of being strong.  I don't want to do this anymore.  My head hurts and I can't breathe.  I'm living for her, I am so tired.  Goodnight my love.