Wanna hear something funny? I've started to run again. Starting over from scratch. That wasn't the funny part. I listen to my running app as she coaches me when to run and when to "slow down and walk" I survived the first two sessions. I still have my running play list of music that plays in my ears as I desperately wait for the "slow down and walk" command. Here comes the funny part... Friday it's just a gorgeous day outside. I'm out for a run and my music is playing. My running music has some songs that you won't hear on the radio because they can't play the lyrics on the radio, I know super unexpected coming from little old me. Any who, I've finished the run and I'm completing the "5 min cool down walk" to get back home. There are tons of people outside, neighbors visiting with each other, the doors of winter have been unlocked the spring has beckoned us to come outside and greet each other again. There are families outside playing, a couple sits on the front step of their house and watch as their toddler child plays in the yard. I'm watching all this new life and reintroduction to the outdoors after our long cold winter and in my ears the next song plays. "Damn it Feels Good to be a Gangsta" bass thumping and all. I can't help but laugh as I watch my surroundings in my suburb neighborhood with families playing outside, a senior citizen couple riding bikes, And everything's cool in the mind of a gangsta.
I had to share with someone, didn't know who. I miss sharing my stories with you. I thought of three different people I could relate that story to, but then I thought better of it, might be awkward. Sometimes I think I need to take more risks and let down my wall, but with that comes fear and anxiety.
love you handsome man.