I'll miss hearing this song on my phone, I would get all excited because you were calling me.
I just loved making you happy.
I miss how you always kept me grounded, reminded me not to worry about things I couldn't control. I'm trying to remember, I really am. When things get too crazy or become too much I try to think what would Richard say right now. You were so funny and quick it's hard for me to come up with the right words to remember, but I always knew exactly what you meant even before you said the perfect words at the right moment.
I hope you know how much I love you, even still. I feel so lonely and empty with out you. You always believed in me and thought I was so intelligent. You made me feel really good about myself. I'm trying to hang on to that too.
I am so sorry you suffered so much, especially at the end.
I love you my handsome man.
take care
